Hey, How are ya?
I’m fine. How are you?
Thanks for asking, and let me tell you. Not good at all. First off, due to all these snow days, I’m bout broke as shit. Cause, well, it’s hard to make money when ya ain’t workin. So, yea, I mean I’ve eaten ramen for most every meal this week. The meals I ate, that is. I’ve got about a bajillion bills due, so basically every single penny I have is going to that, may even have to collect a few cans to turn in. Most of my bills are late for some reason, so they’ll probably be due about 2 days after I receive them which is just phenomenally handy. Oh, and it’s cold. And since my power bill was $212. I turned off all my heat cause I just can’t afford that shit. So yea, it’s currently 46°F in my house. But you know, that’s just not even the good stuff.
My week has just be a total fucking disaster. I mean, I don’t wanna keep you all day or anything so I’ll just try to hit the high points. I’m boring as shit. No matter what I do, I seem to bore everyone away. I think a few people have slipped into comas just trying to carry on conversation with me. Work has been… uh.. less than good. And by that I mean. Shitty. Like, .. ok well. I mean. One day, molten lead splattered all over me. Effectively burning the hell out of my arms and face, so now I look a bit like a leper. Which, as you could guess, doesn’t help much with the ladies. Or any social interaction for that matter. Hopefully it won’t be so noticeable after a while, I mean the freckles help camouflage it a bit… right?
Um. Today at work, I had to work on this same stupid piece of crap all day long because it was just plain stupid. Someone had messed something up, and I got to track through a bajillion parts and hundreds of feet of wire to find it. Little did I know, when I hooked it back up correctly, that there was a part shorted out. Well. Here’s how that went. (Holds up finger.) Yea. The wire wrapped around my finger melted immediately. Copper has a melting point of 1,984°F … and it was on my finger.. In case you don’t know. That’s really effing hot. It literally melted my skin off. so now I have this hole halfway through my finger. It hurts.. Really badly. Along with all the other fantastic burn holes I have. Oh, right, Yea, dunno if I mentioned, but when you peel off lead that was a liquid when it hit you, it takes the skin with it. My eyelids are unhappy about that fact.
I am insanely freaking hungry. Ramen just doesn’t seem tasty =( .. I have no idea how I survived college.
Found out today that my cousin has Lymphoma (Cancer). She’s 32. My uncle died a year and a half ago. I had a cousin die a year ago from cancer. And now this. Like. I dunno. I’ve just been in fucking tears all day. For her, and her mother. She’s been through so much, I just don’t fucking understand. Life is a cruel bitch mother. That’s what it is. A fucking sick fucking joke.
So. Yea. This is me. Sitting here. Eyes watering. Talking to you. Because, well like every mother fucking thing in my life, wouldn’t ya know. I have no one to talk to right now. Of my apparently only 3 friends. One currently isn’t talking to me because I’m a piece of shit. Though I always have been, so not sure why that’s new. One hasn’t responded to me in several days, so I have no idea what’s going on, but I’m assuming just busy with the baby and such. Can’t blame em. And the other is fucking a bajillion out of town. So, as figures. I want nothing more than to just Not fucking sit here alone tonight. But, guess what options I have. Yep. That. I dunno. Feel like I may try that alcoholic thing again. I failed last time. Fucking stomach ulcer. But I mean. When you fall down ya just gotta get back up.
Oh and I watched a movie yesterday. It’s one of my new favorites. But, I don’t think I can watch it again. I cried like a little girl cause I realized how much I hate my life because it didn’t turn out remotely how I wanted and that I would give anything for someone to share it with.. And I really want the soundtrack… but yep. broke. So I can’t afford it.
Oh.. Oh.. my bad. I meant. I fine, Thanks.
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