I’ve worked lifelong obsessions down to the mostly simplest of terms.
I am obsessed with beauty.
Basically everything can be traced back to Beauty in some way.
Most of my hobbies can be traced somehow to the creation of or the appreciation of beauty.
Music. I’m obsessed with music because there’s such a beauty in music. It’s why I often find myself completely crushing on girls who have beautiful singing voices. And even music that isn’t intended as beautiful.. Still holds so much beauty. Just the way sounds all work together to cause feelings and emotions. I play instruments because I want to be able to make beautiful music.
Animals. I love keeping fish. Because I love watching fish. They’re so beautiful to watch. The way they swim. Their personalities. In such a simplistic creature.
Drawing. I draw because I try to recreate beauty. Hence why I love art. It’s making something beautiful. Even in things that aren’t ‘aesthetically pleasing’ there is still often beauty to be found.
Reading. I can create marvelous worlds inside my head based on the instructions and story lines of books.
Movies. Because regardless to how amazing my imagination is. I’ll never be able to recreate scenes from movies such as “Legends of the Fall” or “Last of the Dog Men” because the sheer beauty of the wilderness captured in such films is breath taking.
Photography. Clearly. It attempts to capture beauty and preserve it forever. I love photographers who are just able to capture those special somethings in their work. Something just magically beautiful.
Taking long driving trips. Especially through the mountains. Just the beauty of nature. The peace you get from sitting on a rarely traveled road in absolute silence. Just being filled with joy at how beautiful the world can be.
And that’s not to say I despise urban areas. Viewing the New York City skyline at dusk or with the sunrise. It’s beautiful in a mechanical man made way. Anything done right can be beautiful.
And this .. Is why I’m obsessed with girls. Because I find them to be so amazingly beautiful. And then to expound upon that same concept. Any girl who by any means further creates something beautiful just has an exponential beauty to her.
I’m so tired. That. I literally cannot think right now. And so I apologize for the.. Lacking.. nature of this post.. I was simply torn between watching a movie or reading a book. and I began to weigh the options and suddenly had this realization about my life. So I figured I’d try to write it down before it escaped me. And well. Hopefully I’ll come back later and edit it and make it a little more sparkly and coherent.. Right now.. I’m going to lay in bed and try to decide whether to read a book or watch a movie.. I’ll probably just end up sleeping instead.
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